October 30. Halloween party at the karaoke bar.

October 29. It’s quite possible that Twitter will go bust now. It always seemed like the whole universe to me, when it was never more than a small niche. Platforms don’t even make it across generational boundaries.

October 28. Brought J to a doctor, injection into the spine. It will be alright.

October 27. I’ve had somebody clean my apartment.

October 26. By now I buy almost everything with a few keystrokes and a few days of waiting. The houseware store two blocks from here consequently closed down a few months ago. I guess in this area most people shop mostly online. Today I needed a few things that couldn’t wait until Friday. So I went to Bed Bath and Beyond on Sixty-fifth Street - not without buying the stuff ahead of time and just having it ready to pick up. This Bed Bath and Beyond is completely underground, three stories down. The pickup counter in the lobby is the only thing above ground, and it’s hard to even tell from the street that it’s a Bed Bath and Beyond, even though it’s right next to the Met, the spot with the heaviest car traffic on the Upper West Side during evening rush hour.

October 25. Reduced my speed on the piano to slow motion. Jazer on Youtube says one should play each piece seven times with zero mistakes before moving on. That means even though I’m slow, I have still been way too fast so far. There must be some neuroplasticity in there for me.

October 24. To wake up and to know you are now healthy. A younger person would feel frail in this state, I just feel normal. Steady state. My thoughts reach three, four turns, after that they get lost in the fog.

It was a common flu. Except that I never used to get a fever because of it and be out for three days. Our immune systems have to get used to the wide world again after two years of being underchallenged.

I don’t say anything on Twitter anymore because I don’t feel like I can say anything that doesn’t fit the usual schemas. That assigns me to one camp or another. So I prefer to stay quiet.

October 23. Sick. Stubborn fever curve.

October 22. Sick.

October 21. Sick.