2/27 Took ten milligrams of weed, which has frequently helped me to fall asleep and stay asleep, but this time, when I woke up around 2am as usual, it was as if I could, awake, watch my brain being sucked into sleep, which scared me. For hours I tried not to fall asleep under any circumstances, a true panic attack, attenuated only by the intense, changing weed thoughts, each of which more surprising than what I can normally think, only to pop like a soap bubble immediately, I can hardly remember any of them.