9/18 I should mention that I can never remember what J is like. After the two or three days we spend apart in our weekly schedules, I’m always surprised when I meet her again. This fills me with a little concern, because what if she dies some day, and I will be the one who is supposedly most able to remember her, and I won’t. I hope that until then, I become a little more able to remember what she is like, but maybe I shouldn’t.