6/30 Clearly my thinking in extremes at work here. I am now convinced that this election is done and I’d better come to terms with it. Then I watch the speech Biden gave later on Friday, with a teleprompter, and I feel it’s maybe not so bad after all. Clearly, I’m like a leaf blown around and my opinions are not to be trusted.

Went running in the dark after ten. Unusual pains in unusual parts of my body, but oh, the corridors of trees and branches and leaves and the scattered patches of street light, the warmth. I know, from 2019, what it’s like to lose it, and what a paradise it becomes when you wish you were there. I feel like I’m not up to something this big, and yet been shown a glimpse of it, as I make my way, panting, with a hurting foot and hip.