January 17. With such a failure as in a game, where I’m much worse than completely normal people around me for no apparent reason, I get scared every time and increasingly ask myself if I’m possibly getting old. But even if the question were to be answered in the negative now, i.e. if my strange blanks have nothing to do with age, it will be true at some point, and so there is no harm in developing the necessary behavior already: not accepting any limit, trying everything without it depending on whether I can catch up with any normal or young people with it.