August 28. Back in Manhattan. Heat on the subway, urine. Reminded myself of my piano by playing it. Satisfied with the different characters of the instruments, I want both. – When I decide on something as quickly as I’ve decided on this new piano now, I read articles about it and watch videos for days afterwards to back up my decision. Picking apart the sounds of instruments is as nerdy as it is tedious. Music as showing off. I don’t want to be able to play in a way that keeps the audience from getting bored, but in a way so that sounds that wouldn’t exist without me are getting created.