December 28. One of my tiktoks has been watched five hundred times. And now I’m trying to repeat it. But I can’t. The music turns away from me in a huff, my play is contrived and fake. How does that work – setting up the camera, choosing the clothes, and then playing as if it were for the first time. As if you’d never heard that you’re good, and you couldn’t believe it any more than back then.