November 30. J speaks completely privately in these videos. Just like we talk to each other alone. I want everyone to see these videos so they know what a stunning woman she is. And then I wonder if I did something wrong, if I wasn’t there at an important moment when I should have been, so the energy went into the video instead. For the most part, I hope, not.

I went to the European Wax Center to get a Brazilian wax. This has been possible for men for two months now. The aesthetician says I am her third male client. I assume I am the third one ever. J guesses I am the third one that day. The work, I suspect, is similar to that in a nursing home. These aestheticians have seen it all.