October 26. The announced storm with heavy rainfall delays its arrival. I go running, my condition is much better thanks to the fallen temperatures. Watched Fitzcarraldo with J over the weekend. I had never noticed how European this film is.

Is it possible to imagine someone who just equanimously continues to pay the same child support as he did here in Manhattan, possibly even increasing it if he can? Conversely, what does it mean to furiously reduce it? I have been declared inconsequential to my children, so inconsequential that one might as well move to another country. How does one react to that? In the long run?