April 23. It’s so perplexing how easily I forget the whole world. Then I’m locked into what I know, what I do, and what I feel. And it’ s not easy to get out of that, either. This way out is just as unavailable as one cannot produce an idea or an observation by oneself. But you could at least know that so much exists around you and you just don’t have access to it. To feel not being enough has always been the most alive in me. And I’ve known for a long time that one needs books for that – and I forget it all over again all the time.